Wednesday, September 14, 2011

What is new......lots!!

The last year has been evolutionary. We began last year same as always. But then in April Scot lost his job. The next week we found out that I was pregnant. So I spent the summer with morning sickness. It was terrible morning sickness, too. I have been planning on applying pharmacy school but it keeps getting pushed back. It is so frustrating!! For a few years Scot has complained of neck pain. Last, March he was in a car wreck and had a neck injury. We settled with the insurance company and went on. We were broke b/c of the layoff. His neck was causing him so much pain. I knew it was bad when he said that it was hurting worse than his back!! His back hurts so much I don't know how he has functioned for the last few years. So this year he had surgery the first of August. It turned out that his neck pain was from two herniated discs. Well, he has several herniated discs but the doctor felt that the two he removed were the main trouble makers. Since then he said the migraine type pain that wrapped around his head was better. I guess he has had a little relief. Last week though he has had pain and burning in the lower part of his head which is associated with neck injuries. Because he is in such .... Oh wait, he also needs ankle surgery from an old injury. It has been hurting alot, too. But due to the large amounts of pain he is in daily we are going to file for disability. He just cannot go back to work. The most frustrating part is that his pain is so out of control. I wish there were more pain med. options or other treatments. He just suffers so much.

Needless to say we knew this day was coming. His back has been bad for along time. But I am just not prepared to be the bread winner just yet. I am still in school and will be for quite a while. I have 3 kids that I home school. I have an amazing little guy who needs a mom. I am feeling frustrated, scared and sad. Sad to loose my time with the kids. I love being with them. Each one is fun and amazing in their own way. They are the best!!! I am not sure where to go from this point. I should be looking for a job but how?? Between the kids school, my school and the baby. I am booked.

It is hard to write and catch up in just one post. I will try to keep a little more active. Hope all is good where you are!!

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